...that no one ever reads

Haha! Well, oh goodness, where do I begin? Would it just be easier to list stuff, or maybe group things together? Yeah, probably!
Okay so here's a guide as to what will be in this journal.

- College Updates
- Photo Updates
- Moving Updates
- Other Life Updates
- Sad Updates
- A new update

Disclaimer- Sorry for typos and things that may or may not make sense, I'm in a rush to get this up

Additions as of 11/11/11

Hey guys! So I'll get zoo photos up soon but I just found out that I'll be going to the Eastern Shore Classic either tomorrow or Sunday so except show pictures from there as well, woohoo! Show site- [link]


Well, as most of you know I ended up wanting to take the year off from school to focus on life and such but, well, I'm so sick of -not- being in school, haha! I miss having friends to constantly talk to and I want get going with my life so screw taking a year off! One semester was plenty and I can't wait to start school in January! Hopefully I'll be heading to Bama but, if worse comes to worse, Ole Miss is a lovely place too and I can always transfer somewhere else (:

I've really been thinking about my major choice as well. We all know I thoroughly love photography, but what if theres something else out there that I love too? Well, why not major in something else and then go to a photography-specific school after 'regular' college? So, I plan on attending the Brooks Institute after I'm done with my first fourish years (: I think what I want to major in right now though is apparel design. I took up sewing this year and I've come to love both designing stuff to make and making it! I've been getting okayish at hats and I made my first article of clothing [a fleece dress] for Halloween and it turned out pretty nicely for my very first time! I'm really excited and I can't wait to learn more about it in a real setting, considering I am completely, 100% self-taught, haha! [Same goes for photography too lol]




Oh photography, how you have seriously come to annoy me these past couple of weeks. I love what I do, I really really do, but I am going through a serious slump right now! Everything I take is just...not good! [At least, not to my standards, but probably not to yours either!] Within the past few months, I've taken over 4000 photos and after going through about 2500 photos last night I found oh, maybe 4 photos I actually liked? Ugh!

When I go to the zoo, for example, I tend to fill up my card, or come close to it, and depending on which card I'm using that tends to be anywhere from 1300 to about 1750 photos. Now, out of all of those, I'll go through and pick out the good ones, which tend to be around 100 to 200 photos normally. Then, out of those, I'll usually end up liking somewhere around 25 to 75 photos and I'll go in and edit those a little bit [cropping, color correction, little things like that because I hate going over-board unless I'm bored and I'm on like a sugar high or something ] and then I move them to a separate folder that gets saved like 6 times and bam, I'm done with those. I'll usually get them printed to shove into a binder, and I'll update some of them here, but thats that.

The fact that I have gone through a little less than half of the photos that I've taken since July and I have found that less than 10 are worthy of being edited in some way is...sad...to say the least.

So, long story short, I have been a stress monster for over half a year now so hopefully a nice visit to the zoo tomorrow will be helpful since hanging with animals always helps me to calm down and just relax. And, given that the weather is nice next week, I'll be heading over to DC to check out the Smithsonian ^^




Mmk, so the last time I gave you all an update on life, I mentioned a crap tom of moving around so, moving gets it own section because I seem to do a lot of it, haha!

For the past 4ish months, I have been living in Baltimore, Maryland and I really do love it here! But, while all families are dysfunctional in their own ways, I simply cannot live with mine. I have lived with my parents, and that works in most ways, but I wanted to try living with my grandparents as a way to get back out west, but that just doesn't work at all. I have a crapton of respect for my family, especially its elder members, but I just can't work with the way things go here. Their system doesn't work for me, and believe me, I have tried adjusting but it just...well lets not get Brooke started on it haha

So why to get back out west? Because I adored Breckenridge. I still consider moving away from Breck one of the biggest, if not -the- biggest, mistake I have ever made. But Idaho? Yeah, that place is no Colorado. As a matter of fact, Idaho just sucks haha! No offense to my peeps who live out there, but it is just not for me. Colorado is where its at and hopefully one day I'll make it back there. If anything, I plan on making trips out there occasionally just because.

But anyways, back to the updates. So I went from SC to MD for a few months, and now, at the end of this month I'll be heading back down south to SC because, well, I refuse to move to Idaho and I'm not sure how much longer I'd be able to live with the grandparents I love them, I really do, but they're easier to visit, living with them is really hard. So I'll be back in SC for about a month, and then I'll be off to college, woohoo!




Woohoo random updates time!

So, dA's latest updates- Yay or nay?
Personally, I think they suck. Every time they update this place they make it less user friendly!

MLP [My Little Pony]- What are your thoughts on the show? Are you a secret brony? Do you hate it, even though you've never taken the time to watch it? Have you watched it and decided it was stupid? Please, elaborate, I want to see people's opinions on one of the latest trends!
Personally, I really like the show! The art is fun, the animation itself is wonderful, and the characters are great! Overall I really like the show, and I have deemed myself a brony [which can be used by both female AND male fans, I am so sick of people only using it for guys and thinking it describes 350 pound 40 year old men, UGH!]

Drawing updates- I find myself drawing in MLP style quite a bit, its easy [for me] and fun, but its really been screwing with my anatomy studies I did for horses as a whole OTL Hopefully I'll get that fixed very very soon! I need to get back into drawing a lot more than just horses and dogs though, I really want to get better at people but they're just so darn annoying! Oh well, as a clothing designer I'll have to suck it up and get good, haha!

My sleeping habits? Yeah, they're horrible now lol BUT this will hopefully be changing like...starting tonight lol I plan on going to bed hopefully around 12/12:30ish instead of...well I don't want to get into the times I've been going to bed lately, its that bad!

Halloween- My favorite holiday sucked this year ): I am SO upset! And I worked super hard for weeks on my costume, and I didn't really get to wear it. i was supposed to take my little cousin trick or treating but, no, instead, we had to go buy cat food. Ugh!

Sewing- Well, I know I mentioned it above, but I've really grown to love it <3 I'm trying to come up with my own pattern for making horse plushies but I really just haven't had any time to play with what I've come up with! Plus, I used all of my tester fabric to test out my dress pattern D: But, I'll go to JoAnns and stock up on remnants soon enough, haha!

Yup, thats...a lot but i know there's more but I won't kill you guys by making you read all of it, haha! But please, comment on your positions on dA's updates and MLP, I'd love to hear your opinions! And if you have any questions for me concerning the above, below, or just general questions, comment with those too, haha!




Well, I want to make this as small as possible, but it's just hard to not elaborate on all of the sad things that have happened this year, specifically a few of the deaths I have had to deal with.

To make this short, I'm just going to briefly mention a couple of the deaths I've dealt with.
Lizzie Murphy- A gorgeous person, both inside and out, who was the very first person to approach me and smile at me on the first day of school when I started at Summit High School in Breckenridge, Colorado. She passed away 6 months ago because of a car accident and it's gotten much easier to cope with, but it just sucks :/ Rest in peace hun, I miss you tons </3

Sam Cliffe- Oh Mudkipz, where would I start in describing you to everyone? God, i loved you more than you'll ever get to know, and I know you loved me too <3 You were my best friend, my helpful computer nerd, and all things in between. My go-to guy that I still talk to almost every night just like we used to, whether its in my thoughts or out loud, I know you can hear me. Even mom misses you </3 Rest in peace, dear friend, I miss you like crazy <3

Sammy- A lovely yellow Labrador passed away not too long ago, and man oh man did that hurt. Every time I walk by her cage and see that it's empty, I want to cry </3 Rest in peace sweetie, I'll get the one photo I have of you up here soon to pay a tribute to you <3

Cover Girl- I just lost her this morning, but the fact that I wasn't allowed to say goodbye to this horse, just like I was told when my horse, Merlin, died, hurts like hell. She was a sweetheart, and a fantastic horse that I will miss dearly. Rest in peace Covie, I am so sorry I didn't get to come see you yesterday </3

Kendall Walton- Oh Kendall, I'm so terribly sorry for the way you had to leave us all earlier this evening at 10. Drinking and driving isn't something that should be messed with, and you pushed the line a few more times than you probably should have, but it was okay because we all loved you and trusted you to make good decisions. We didn't know each other as well as I could have wished [in all honesty, you are absolutely gorgeous and I was jealous to the point where I wanted to be your friend to learn how you did your hair and makeup every morning because you were flawless], but the conversations we had during free period, whether they were complaining about Mrs. Ham or just one of us jumping into the other's conversation, they were always fun. You were always happy, it seemed, and you had a smile and you were just one of the nicest people to talk to. And you were an amazing actress in the plays. Only the good die young they say, and you certainly were one of the good ones, just like Lizzie and Sam. RIP hun, you will be deeply missed.